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Tension Headaches
October 18, 2004 - 11:53 pm
Let me just breath for a minute.
I have made a lot of positive changes recently, and I have been an unusually optimistic person. However, some shitty things have been happening lately, and I'd like to just discuss them.
The first and most important thing occurred today. I had some job news to discuss with my mother so I called her. She had been to the doctor today, and it was discovered that her cancer is back. She hasn't had a scan for about 3 years, and I spent most of our conversation trying to convince her to call her specialist tomorrow. Mom promised that she would call. I'm confident that everything is going to be fine.
I have been having tremendous job stress lately. It's been very hard and mentally exhausting. There is no need to go into details. It's just been a shitty couple of days. I'm so thankful that I have such a great boss though. Beth and I have such a strong relationship. We have a lot of respect for one another. In an office immersed in corporate politics, Beth is truly one of the rare executives. I'm lucky. And so is she.
My cell phone was stolen. Yeah, this truly sucks! I've been going out quite a bit lately, and Crobar has quickly become the hot spot. Two Fridays ago Blake, Cherish and I decided to go for open bar. Nick hooked us up with VIP passes...weird... anyways. We all had a little too much to drink. I haven't really gotten drunk for a while, and it is definitely evident that I cannot handle the emotions that come with being intoxicated. My mind just contradicts itself. This new positive outlook only started about 2 months ago, so it's hard to keep at it at all times (especially when I let myself get out of control). Anyways...that's not even related to my phone...Blake's phone wasn't working so I let him use mine. I left the club and forgot to get my phone back. Well, the next morning I noticed that Blake had sent me an AIM saying he didn't have my phone and he didn't have his wallet. I later discovered that he was robbed on the subway. It's truly an awful story, and I'm so thankful that he wasn't hurt. But I loved my phone. And I really didn't have the money to buy a new one. Nevertheless, I went to a Sprint store that day and bought an identical phone for $250 (how ridiculous is that!?!). Everything is fine now though. I just lost certain numbers and pictures that I'll never get back.
For the most part that's it. My job has definitely been the biggest headache, but I'm trying to stay focused. I can do it. Oh, one more thing...my cat is gone. She is currently getting spayed. She's been gone a little over a week. I miss her. It's so weird not having her around. I'm not quite sure how much longer she'll be gone, but hopefully not too long.
My new additions to the website are almost finished. I can't wait to talk about my Monster Weekend. Hopefully that'll be the next thing here.
I'm still working on this new positivity thing. It's going really well, despite these recent drawbacks. Life is still constanting getting better. That's hard to say right now...but it's true.
