Reflections
January 05, 2003 - 3:53 pm
Don't ask me why, but I feel a need to reflect on this past year. It seems like so much as happened, good and bad. In my opinion I think this past year has been mostly bad things, but to some people, that may sound ungrateful, so maybe I shouldn't say that.
Let's start with the biggie...my brain tumor. Most, not all, of the things that happened to me this year were in accordance with my brain. It all seems so strange that at this time last year, I still had no knowledge of the tumor. It all happened so fast. Tests, tests, and more tests, then it was discovered. Brain tumor. Left parietal lobe. Introductions to people (mostly doctors) that would change my life forever. Headaches galore. MRIs galore. Needles and pills always present. Semester ends. Surgery. Brain tumor partly removed. Wow. So quick. But it doesn't end there. Here's a glimpse of what I had to deal with all summer...
Aren't I so pretty? Summer was horrible. Millions of pills. No hair. Tons of weight gain. Bad mood swings. Invisible friends. Bitchy family. Hating life. Yeah, sounds like fun doesn't it?
Happiness, though, when I returned to New York. Bart was finally seen, after much missing. However, certain secrets had been revealed and presented some communication barriers for the two us. In other words, we fought all the time. Things are getting better though.
I had a really great job this last semester, and I got accepted into NYU's Study Abroad program. Those are definitely positive things. I also turned 21 finally. That's definitely a good thing.
My two closest female friends had babies this past year. Jennifer had a little girl, Imajen Nichole Downing. Christina had a little girl also, Caitlin Christine Pace. They are very cute babies, but it really makes things different now. It seems like everyone is getting old too fast, or taking on too much responsibility too soon. I'm sure they can handle it though. However, I know I couldn't.
This past year went by so fast. I don't really have any resolutions for the new year. I think it's pointless to make resolutions. It only leads to disappointment. Things happen whether you want them to or not, and vice versa.
The end.
